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Friday, May 24, 2013

Just When I Thought It Would Never End


The last day of school has come and gone. Dreams of swimming pools and lazy days in the afternoon sun dance in my head. But when I open my eyes and look out into my backyard, I see snow. It is melting- very, very slowly. The grass is brown and dry. The birch trees still swing naked branches. The reality is that I am enduring the longest winter of my life.

I knew moving to Fairbanks, Alaska would come with unique challenges. The biggest change that we knew we would have to make is getting acclimated to the environment. The first snowflakes began to fall in late September and they have remained until the end of May. We became accustomed to living in darkness, bracing ourselves against the stinging temperatures and learning to skate across parking lots. We anxiously anticipated each change, watching for just how far below zero we would see the scale drop.  It has been adventure.

When the days began to grow longer and the sun began to shine, my hopes filled for warmer days. But they didn't come. Mother Nature seduced me with rising temperatures only to have them plummet suddenly and fresh snow to blanket the ground. I have to admit that I have grown weary of this everlasting cold.

But, just when I thought it would never end, warmth appears on the horizon. On the last day of school, I was a silent observer watching kids enjoy the pleasures of summer. There was a picnic. The aroma of hot dogs on the grill wafted over volleyball games and flying frisbees. The cherry on the top had to be watching kids line up for a slip-n-slide right alongside a huge pile of snow. Yes, they were in their bathing suits and there was water involved.

The silver lining is that summer is on its way, even in Alaska winter does not last forever.

Tuesday, May 21, 2013

I Fell Off the Blogging Wagon and Hit My Head on Facebook

Dear friends,

I was hesitant to post this. In fact, I had posted it yesterday but deleted it after hearing of the devastation in Oklahoma. It just seemed frivolous and my heart didn't feel right.  After some consideration, I have chosen to post it anyway as it is meant to be for lighthearted entertainment.  Please know that my thoughts and prayers are with those of you in Oklahoma and my heart is broken for the losses that you have suffered.


Today I realized that it has been a month since I posted something on this blog. Why? No special reason. Just a little self-doubt and self-deprecation. 

Have you ever noticed that when you’re feeling blue, that everyone around you, or on Facebook, or (insert your favorite media here) seem to live a perfect life? With the click of a button I can follow the daily lives of dear friends on a minute-by-minute basis. It’s fun. There are new babies arriving, fluffy dogs doing funny things, and so many witty comments. But, sometimes the envy monster grabs me around the neck and throws me down.

 Now, I’m grown-up enough to know that the perfect life doesn’t exist. We all have our unique struggles and strife and we go to social media for entertainment, not to wallow in self-pity. So, how do we keep the green eye of jealousy from surfacing the next time a friend posts pictures of their tropical vacation when we’re stuck in the snow?

It all has to do with balance. If you carry a big enough load, eventually you will fall. There are so many things we try to carry in life. Family, work, school, church, and the list goes on and on.  Some people are great a managing these things. I see all your organized lists and perfectly scripted carpools. Me, I’m better at pinning organization tips on Pinterest than actually putting them into practice. Then I think to myself, why can’t I be like that person, I must be an utter failure. But, I’m not. My life is different from yours and your life is different from mine.  Granted, there is room for improvement and if I really want to change, I can change.

When you don’t allow yourself to see the positive things in your own life, that’s when you go to a concert where you watch kids play the violin. Then you realize that you can’t play the violin and don’t have time to learn it, so then you end up on the couch in your sweats watching reruns of House Hunters and thinking that if only you could afford a house in the Hawaiian Islands everything would be better. Or maybe not. That might just be me.


Monday, May 20, 2013

Follow my blog with Bloglovin

 Today I signed up to follow all my favorite blogs with Bloglovin. You should too. It's easy and all my favorites are in one place. Don't miss a single post. Oh, and be sure to add The Winged Pen to your favorites. Please and Thank you! If you need some more reasons to sign up with Bloglovin, read my friend Anna's post over at The Silent Isle.